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so, thursday night i went to west chester with will aj and brandon
and as the night soon turned to morning, we found ourselves in new jersey
spending all of friday, morning to evening.

ive come to the conclusion,
that maybe i need to cut back on the partying.
because when im drunk, i make irrational decisions.
which at the time are so much fun, but when i come back down off of that cloud
i begin to realize the downfalls of my past actions.

dont get me wrong, thursday to friday
i dont think i have ever laughed so hard in an entire 2 days
in my life.
i was starving, delerious and so tired
but yet, my laugh never seemed to be under control
and that is when my life starts to fall into place
even under all that chaos.


and what is killing me most out of this entire mess my life has become.
i dont have the one person, who once before was the light at the end of my tunnel
i was so close to having everything ive ever wanted, and then we faded
and now everything is in one hole.



i am such a mess.
i know ive said this many times,
but seriously this is a new beginning!