ugh

i miss

so, i miss my best friend. idk what happened, or how it happened. but i havent really actually talked to her in like days. i feel like im missing out on like everything. and the other thing is i dont have any more girl friends. ha....i had two, alexa was the best of them, and the other ive been friends with her foor like 7 years now, and as bad as it sounds i think im still friends with her out of habits or something, cause shes never actually really there anymore. i just miss having a girl to talk to. i mean i have friends, but most of them are guys. i cant usually stand girls, but me and this girl were best friends, she was like the only girl i could stand. she was my other half, and i dont have that anymore. i just miss the old days...not to mention, i miss a lot of things and how it used to be. dont get my wrong, i like the way things are going right now, and i am happy, theres just some things that i wish hadnt changed. like there were things i was so sure on before, and now its not so much. and thats what i miss about things before now.

new yearr

okay, so wow. its been months since ive seen this thing.
things are a bit different now. the person i used to think i was so in love with is now gone. yes, in the beginning it was hard to get over, but i moved on. it was easier than i thought it would be. but im better now, im not being treated like shit anymore, me and him are better off friends, i mean he was my best friend for over a year, he knows everything about me..and i mean everything, things not even my family knows, i cant just let go of a friendship like that. but at the end of that, i came out with someone better. and this boy is practically perfect for me. i guess i sound like a little school girl or whatever saying that, but thats how i get around him. which is a change. uhh what else? oh, im back home, things between me and my family is better than i think ever, expecially between me and my brother. hes one person i will go to for anything wihtout any judgement, hes number one in my life no matter what. uhm, well i start school soon, the beginning of feb. cosmetology school. im excited for that for sure...

on irrelevant things, the eagles are so close to going to the superbowl. and im so excited. first the phils, and now maybe, possiblyyyyyy...the eagles ! kdjlasjfldsf im reallly stoked about that. hahaha
i went to the movies tonight with billy, and saw notorious (: ughhh sooo good. uhm so faith evans can beat a bitch up ?! like wowww haha


hmm thats about it, im trying to get a lot of things done before school starts and what not, like before i lose all free time. for instance, sunday im trying to go see ryans band play in doyelstown, you should too. Full Circle ...check them out (:

but on the real note, its like after 3am, and even though i had like 4 red bulls in the matter of like 3 hours, im actually really tired.