i miss

so, i miss my best friend. idk what happened, or how it happened. but i havent really actually talked to her in like days. i feel like im missing out on like everything. and the other thing is i dont have any more girl friends. ha....i had two, alexa was the best of them, and the other ive been friends with her foor like 7 years now, and as bad as it sounds i think im still friends with her out of habits or something, cause shes never actually really there anymore. i just miss having a girl to talk to. i mean i have friends, but most of them are guys. i cant usually stand girls, but me and this girl were best friends, she was like the only girl i could stand. she was my other half, and i dont have that anymore. i just miss the old days...not to mention, i miss a lot of things and how it used to be. dont get my wrong, i like the way things are going right now, and i am happy, theres just some things that i wish hadnt changed. like there were things i was so sure on before, and now its not so much. and thats what i miss about things before now.